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Wild Blue Yonder
04:28
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It's the end of the season
All the shudders have been nailed
We're folding the cabanas
All the big boats they have sailed
And I'm left here to ponder
Over the wild blue yonder
All the beaches are deserted
The roller coaster does not roll
The concessions are abandoned
And umbrella stuck in the shoal
And I'm left here to ponder
Over the wild blue yonder
Putting out the last of the garbage
Sam says, "I'll see you next year"
I'm about to say, "I won't be back"
But Sam went to get a beer
And I'm left here to ponder
Over the wild blue yonder
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2. |
Dark Wood
05:06
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From out of nowhere
There came a storm
A torrent of darkness that blacked my soul
It felt like nothing I'd ever known
Or could describe
Let alone control
In the middle of the journey of my life
I found myself in a dark wood
For I had lost the right path
Rough, stubborn, and wild
From out of nowhere
A drizzle of horror
Manifested as a queasy physical pain
Thought that it might pass
But it went on and on
Until it consumed my brain
From out of nowhere
There came a panic
My thoughts a tornado in my head
I could not understand it
Couldn't stop it
So ugly and so widespread
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3. |
Release Me
04:50
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I been a prisoner here
Been here for a million years
Could be here for a million more
Open up the gate before it's too late
Won't someone help me knock down the door
Is anybody out there
Does anybody have the key
Won't somebody come along and set me free
Won't you release me
I’m down on my knees
Won't you release me
Please, please, please
I want to let it all go, I want to give it all up
But I guess I just don't have the guts
I want to be strong, don't care if I'm wrong
No ifs, no ands, and no buts
Wouldn't hurt you to help me
In fact I would do more than ask
You might like to if you are up to the task
Won't you release me
From this troubled place
Won't you release me
And send me to a state of grace
I want to hang it all up
I want to pack it all in
The question is why haven't I
I want to say, See ya
I want to say farewell
I want to kiss you all goodbye
You could make it easier
If you'd pitch right on in
Plan a little send off
Best to leave you with a grin
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4. |
My Problem
04:36
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I made a lot of goofs
I hit a lot of snags
I screwed my shit up royally
I blew my chances
Of ever finding love
Yeah that's the story of me
That’s the story
But the thing that bugs me most
The thing that hurts down to the bone
Is that thing that's doomed me from the start
I’ve wracked my brain the best I could
But I never understood
I never understood my own heart
I done a lot of bad
I caused a lot of pain
And I did it mostly unwittingly
My whole life is joke
Just not funny ha-ha
And I have suffered befittingly
I made a big mess
I didn’t clean it up
And now it’s coming back to haunt me
I have paid the price
Paid it back with interest
So why do my failures still taunt me
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5. |
Define Love
05:44
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What is this, I say
This is this, you say
Then it’s goes and fades away
Into the oblivion of lost dreams
I have a void
Inside my wretched guts
And it spills over
And it busts out at the seams
If you ask me
It is truth
It is beauty
It is truth and beauty
That is love
What I see is this
What you see is that
And I just want to build a bridge
That spans our divide
Maybe we can connect
Maybe we can share our secrets
Maybe then we won't have to hide
What I want is this
What you need is that
But what happens to us
When you pull off the veil
You got one naked boy
And one naked girl
Ravaging each other
Hear them wail
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I can recall when I first fell so hard
You looked right through me
And I swooned
There was something clear
In your soft green eyes
You disarmed me
And the walls fell
I will walk you out of the desert, you said
And I believed you
'Cause I so wanted to believe
I will take you by the hand, you said
I held out my hand
And you pulled away
I will live to see you die, I will live to see you die
An eye for an eye, an eye for an eye
I will live to see you die
I can recall when it first took shape
Like camera lens coming to focus
And I rushed to meet the tide
And it bowled me right over
I was just fool enough let you in
I let you take over
And you ran the joint right into the ground
Tossed in a match
And set the world on fire
And we dance among the ruins
And we dance among the ruins
And we drink and we die laughing
It would be easy to be angry
Because the anger kills the love
And love is fragile
And anger devours it like a raging beast
I don’t want what we have to come to ruin
And wind up alone out in the desert
I just want to feel love
I just want to feel your love
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7. |
The Far Country
04:54
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Late last night I changed my mind
Decided I would pack it in
I stashed my dreams and my busted heart
My hopes that I would ever win
Well I hit the road in my beat-up van
Had to get myself right out of town
Said farewell to my sleeping kid
No, I just didn't want to bring her down
Say goodbye, bye to all I've known
Say hello to the far country
I know that I, I am all alone
Way out here in the far country
I drove along 'bout a thousand miles
Till my van went and blew a rod
The mechanic said it'd cost a thousand bucks
I took the name in vain of my god
So I hitched a ride with a guy named Fred
Said he was headed to a cult out West
He wanted to know if I would go along
Told him I would join him on his quest
Fred and I we found a home
With seventy virgins at our beck and call
We built an empire with our own four hands
Next week we break ground for a mall
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8. |
Thick As Thieves
03:52
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Let me tell you all
Just what I’ve seen
What I been witness to unwittingly
It ain’t pretty
It is downright base
But it all happened unremittingly
I wish I did not see
But I can’t change reality
Here they come
Like a juggernaut
They are blowing around like autumn leaves
They’ll eat you out
Of your house and home
Watch them close they are as thick as thieves
Say what you will
But you can’t know
What it’s like to live among this tribe
They stew in their filth
They are not contrite
As for the rest I’m at pains to describe
Suffice to say they're vile
And they’re here to stay for long, long while
Don't you equivocate
Better do something before it's too late
Don’t turn a blind eye
Don’t let these sleeping dogs lie
You can judge me
Call me scum
But you’ve got no idea where I’m coming from
I have lived it
I’ve seen it all first hand
They play the game of zero sum
I’m soon to be replaced
Thrown out like toxic waste
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9. |
My Psychosis
06:14
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This didn’t turn out
Quite the way I thought it would
This is not the life I was hoping for
What I was hoping for
Was something a little bit better
Something grander, something more
I think about the time
I was on that stretch of highway
And my car got run off the road
It was then and there everything changed
It was then and there I saw my life explode
This is me, this is who I am, this is how I feel
This is my story, this is my world and none of it is real
Sometimes I imagine I slipped through a crack
Into an alternate dimension
Things were the sort of the same and sort of not
It was a place outside my comprehension
And in this place things seemed slightly off
In a way almost imperceptible
And I didn’t get it at first, didn’t see the change
It just became what was acceptable
What is it like to be in my head
What is it like to feel what I feel
I could draw you a graphic novel
But to you it would never seem real
Time goes by in the way time goes by
And I grew up and grew older
And the love of my life she got away from me
And the world got a lot colder
And I came to realize just what had happened
I had broken through by osmosis
You can say I’m crazy
You can say I’m nuts
You can say it’s my psychosis
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10. |
Home
05:22
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Got my things all packed away
Turned off the radio
Took one last look around
And told myself I'm ready to go
I was born a long, long way
From where I'm wanna be
And now I'm, I'm on my way
I'm on my back way home
Got my ticket in my hand
The train is almost here
A wind blows my at my back
My eyes let go a tear
Scenes go floating by
Like something from a dream
And I let go a laugh
This is not just what it seems
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Eliotwilder1 Boston, Massachusetts
With the exception of the albums "Wolves," "The Far Country," and "Mercy," these songs were recorded in Boston at Woolly Mammoth Sound between 2004 and 2009. Big thanks to Dave Westner and Natalia Cooper.
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